Monday, September 14, 2009

The one about overcoming fear and fulfilling a dream...



I've been thinking about it for a while. Thinking that I could never do it. Then the goal came along. I needed to develop a skill...what skill? What could I do? When I was in 8th grade our school shuttled us to the area high schools for "recruitment." We were able to take a tour, ask questions, and generally see what life would be like at NDA, SUA, CCHS, or dare I say, Cardinal Stritch if High School Musical were true to life. I knew I would go to SUA whether I liked it or not, which was really fine with me. Allegiances to the various schools started young and ran deep.

During our visit, the choir sang a few songs. I thought they were beautiful and talented women, the singing was so vibrant, they seemed to glow. For the last song, they formed a circle around the tables of us Jr. high kids and sang, "Cast Thy Burden," accapella. I was moved. I've always loved hearing choirs sing even though I am, to say the least, not good. So...I joined the ward choir on Sunday. I was so intimidated and I think I sang with the wrong part. I didn't think I was a Soprano because a.)I have no idea what Soprano means and b.) I can't sing very high and still use my natural voice. I sat with the Altos and attempted to follow along. The first song we sang was one I had never heard before which really didn't help. I started out okay but by the end was hoping I could just shut my voice off and pretend to sing. The choir is beautiful...I'm trying to just blend in. I could hear my voice getting quieter and quieter in hopes that my mistakes wouldn't stand out too much. I didn't know when it was or wasn't okay to breathe, I didn't know what a Fermata was, or pick up; it's been a really long time since band. Which, come to think of it-hated and fudged my way through that too. However, I am determined to improve. I went to the church website and look up the songs we're singing and played the Alto part...it is too low...and I can't read music, so I really need to just stick to the melody. I printed out a list of the musical symbols and definitions so I can learn them...hopefully quickly. I am excited to be singing with a vibrant group...maybe in time my voice will get a little louder.

5 comments:

Angie said...

Well, I for one think this is awesome. You were only sitting one person away from me and I didn't notice anything awful coming from your direction. A song is always tricky at first. We've been working on that first song since I moved here in July...so do NOT feel bad. I think it is great how you are always working on learning new things. That's what life is about. And luckily there are so many talented people in our choir (me not included) that they can make up for those of us who are still learning.

Stacie said...

Way to go Anna! You are so awesome. I need to be better at being a beginner...maybe you can teach me some tricks. Stick with it...you will learn it all soon. I am impressed at your determination to learn new things. I've been thinking about making time for choir again...maybe I'll try harder now!

GramMO said...

Lucy is one lucky girl to have such a determined mom! What a wonderful example you are for her and all of us. I love you

bethy said...

You are an inspiration to aspiring choir members everywhere. I don't know anyone that puts that much energy into ward choir. I think that that is great.

Rachel said...

You're my hero. I had no idea you hadn't sung before. You're a natural. Way to try something new!