Friday, June 17, 2011

A word about Father's Day...

Because my Dad passed away, I sometimes feel like I should be sad; that Father's day should be an unhappy reminder of someone I'm missing.  However, it isn't.  I don't think about my Dad only on Father's day.  I think it's like saying you're only Christian on Christmas.  I miss my Dad all the time, and yes, it used to be a heart-wrenching, anxiety-inducing pain, but it isn't anymore.  Peace has replaced my anger.  I miss things I would have liked to have learned from him, like gardening...I know it's something we could have enjoyed together, but really, I take comfort in my knowledge of the Plan of Salvation.  I think the hardest part is not having him here to enjoy Lucy...and really that's selfish on my part...I know he would think she's amazing and I want to hear him tell me how great she is.  I want to overhear him tell someone else how "sharp" she is.   I believe that there is something special about father's of daughters.   

Around the time my dad died, Heavenly Father gave me someone wonderful.  My father-in-law.  I'm not sure what I expected a typical father-in-law to be like but I'm sure it wasn't what I have. I have been blessed with a sweet, tenderhearted man who hasn't hesitated to treat me as his own and share his life with me.  He listens when I need him to, he answers my cooking questions (just like my dad did), he lets me curl up next to him on the couch, he gives advice when he knows I need it and loves me in just the way a father should.  I realize now that all fathers are special and I feel so blessed to have been given two.

Happy Father's Day to my two special Dads and the sweet, sweet Father of my Lu and her Baby Brother, the love of my life.

Oh, and I hope Baby Brother looks just like this:

My Dad, probably around 1944.


Jennifer said...

love you

Emily said...

I love this post. I miss papa :/
love you!

Stacie said...

This is so sweet, Anna. You are such an example to me. Thanks for sharing!

Missi said...

Anna, I love you, too. I also thought it was crazy how much Tony looks like his Dad. I was sorting through some art boxes that I haven't looked in for a long time and came across an unfinished sketch I was doing of you and your Dad back when you and I were roommates. I wish it were more finished so it could be a nice gift to you. I think I captured your hand well...that's about it. I can bring it to MI next time I'm there so you can see it. (There's really not much to see though.)