Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Just some thoughts...

Hello...Happy Belated Easter.

Why do I keep getting so behind on my blog?  Why does so much of my time go into a) my computer, b) my television and c) cleaning this little apartment.  Seriously?  You'd think it would be a breeze to just clean and be done.  There are several mess makers here who need a constant clean up crew.  I sit down at my computer with an objective such as "research baby eczema" (what is up with Noah's skin? after researching, I think it's a combination of things and I've hopefully found a couple promising things to try) but I sit down and before I have even gotten to the Google search page I am cruising FB, checking my friends new pins on Pinterest (how legal is Pinterest, btw?), checking what the crazy celebs are doing on People (WHY?!) and the headlines on MSN.  So, now a half hour (at least) has been wasted, and I've completely forgotten why I sat down.  Then I think about by blog...my dearly loved, but painfully neglected blog.  I start to go through photos and get overwhelmed by how behind I am.  I am feeling like I want to just get rid of everything.  FB, Pinterest, probably not the blog because it has been such a source of joy for me but right now it's feeling like a chore.  I have to update about Mom Awards, Conference Weekend, Spring Break at Grammi and Grandpa's, and Easter.  Plus a couple new recipes to show you.  I'm just not motivated to do any of it.  I'm trying to be better about prioritizing and I've been spending too much time drawing something.  Dumb.  It's sort of like a diet (I jumped off that wagon over a month ago and am trying to think about finding my way back) where I think about all the time I've wasted and how I can never get that time back so I might as well just waste more time.  Then I sit at my desk and read more garbage or I sit in front of the TV and have to see what the new kitchen reno looks like, how much they got for that storage locker, or who gets chopped.  WHY?  What does this "stuff" become so important to me?  Why does it seem so much more exciting than planning FHE and Sharing Time when my ultimate goals in life would be much better met if those were the areas in which I spent my time?

I am not perfect.
That drives me crazy.


5 comments:

Diana said...

Just so you know, you are not a lone...you are not alone! (I did delete facebook a few weeks ago for this very reason and am loving the freedom. I still love blogs and am working my way out of that world and pinterest isn't nearly as enticing for me if I'm not already on the computer)

Stacie said...

I totally hear ya. And I find that I have gotten into habits on the computer. Check this, then this, then that...it's out of habit, not because I need to. Old habits are hard to break! I'm working on an answer for me...let me know when you find yours!

Shelly Onofrio said...

Anna, your posts are just so...human! Love them, love you. Sometimes how alike we are astounds me. Wish we could be neighbors.

Benjamin said...

Anna,

I've been studying a similar topic in my intellectual property class. I'm a huge nerd and am in the process of finishing a paper on file sharing. There are tons of similarities between file sharing and pintrest's collision with the law. I just bought a book called "free culture" by Lawrence Lessig. I've read him a bit and he is a good source on the topic. Call me if you want to chat about this some time.

Stephanie said...

You may not be perfect, but you are normal. And personally, I find it all the more endearing that you are honest about it. I think anyone who spends any amount of time on the computer, struggles with this to some extent. When you find the answers, let me know!