Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Overthinking

I over think things. Often.  I think it's common among women. Or at least I would like to hope so. I made a play date for Lucy, with one of her friends from school.  Because they live a couple towns over, I invited the mom and other kids too.  She had Monday and Tuesday free this week and I hemmed and hawed over which day to choose.  Monday seemed too close to the weekend, I usually need a little recovery.  So I thought I had said Tuesday.  I bet you can guess what's going to happen.  Monday morning I got up and was a bit lazy.  I watched TV with the kids, played video games, did the dishes and then started organizing the toys downstairs so that when our friends came it would look a bit better.  I took out my sourdough starter and fed it so I could make some yummy bread for our sandwiches on Tuesday.  At about 10:45 I looked at the clock and thought, "okay, this is about how much time I'll have from when I wake up until our friends come."  Tomorrow.  I went back downstairs and organized.  I was barking orders at the kids about what to find and which bin to put it in.

Then I heard a knock at the door.  Cold sweat.  For real?  It's today?  How could I have said Monday?  I swear I said Tuesday.  She must have gotten the day wrong.  Silly lady.  I welcomed them in.  They had driven all the way here, I could not turn them away.  There I stood, in my sweats, unshowered, and slapped a smile on my face.  I didn't have anything in the house I had said I would make for lunch, so I made macaroni and cheese.  Wow.  I didn't have time to think about anything or worry or get anxious or upset about the house not being perfect.  I still had dishes on the counter.  Luckily Lucy was dressed and I had made my bed.  It could have been worse, but I realized that not having time to worry about obsess over every little thing made it a little more enjoyable.  It helped me to be in the moment and enjoy getting to know a new friend.  I think I need to do less thinking and more doing.

I checked my email later.  I said Monday.  What was I thinking?

1 comment:

Shelly Onofrio said...

Hahaha! Love this post--it was very endearing. That is totally me, the over-thinker!